Business first and everything else second, third, fourth, etc….

This Friday, January 28th, Mt. Paran Christian School is holding a fundraising event for us during the Varsity games versus North Cobb Christian (5pm – 9pm).  Come out and support your Eagles and Danny’s continued participation in Beyond Therapy.  We’ll have the 80ft. t-shirts to sell and the school will also have collection buckets at the doors.  We’d love to see everyone there!

Okay, now the updates on all things Diaz and my random thoughts on life as we know it.

A delayed “Happy New Year” to all of you.  I know it’s been some time, but honestly, I’ve been hiding in the dumps.  No, not literally.

Not that my life wasn’t heavy enough, this whole unemployed thing just tops the cake.  To say that I’ve been stressed is an understatement.

I don’t sleep well.  It’s hard to turn off my brain.  Then, I get that heavy sensation in my chest like it’s about to explode.

The pressure of being the bread winner and not doing that, is unbearable.  I don’t know how you men do it.  Yes and you women too.

This past Sunday, I was fine.  Until the congregation started singing “It is Well.”  I’ve sang that song a thousand times growing up in the church, but I couldn’t even get the words out until the last chorus.

It’s not always easy to push your troubles aside and tell the Lord that it’s okay with you.

But, I did it.  Somewhere, maybe in my soul, it is well.  My soul doesn’t know my thoughts, my fears and my inability to fix everything.  My soul is untouched by the thoughts in my head.  My soul communes with the Spirit and thankfully, the Spirit talks to Jesus for me when my mouth can’t get the words out.

To say things are great, easy, wonderful and hunky dory would be false.  But, I think it’s that way for a lot of people.

I started taking a Crossroads Career class at my church.  There are folks in there that have been out of work for more than one year.  I can’t bear that and pray that won’t be me.

Danny has been doing great things in therapy.  More on that momentarily.  But, why don’t these things make a difference in my feelings?  I’m empty in many ways; just sucked dry.

Does anyone else feel this way and is that normal?

Okay, I can’t take this train of thought any more and I’m sure you want to know what Danny has been able to accomplish.

First of all, we ventured up to his parent’s cabin in north Georgia over the holidays.  It has not been modified yet for Danny’s access, but when we got there, he wanted to go up the stairs and inside the place.

So, he walked with no walker, just us, to the bottom of the steps, climbed 12 steps and then used his walker to go into the cabin and then sit in the recliner. 

Corbin exclaimed, “Look, Daddy!  You’re walking all by yourself.”  Once Danny was seated, we all started crying tears of joy.  And, his dad was so excited, he doubled the strength of the coffee!

Danny also has had both his best days walking over ground and also on the manual treadmill.  A couple weeks ago, Danny walked the length of the gymnasium using his walker with no assistance.  He has struggled with getting his knees straight with each step and for some reason, that day, he had no problems.  He even remembered to tell me about it.

Also, this week, he was able to walk on the treadmill with no one helping with his steps and only minimal assistance stabilizing his hips.

All fantastic news and we’re so happy and look forward to the day when all those movements click consistently to make Danny a strong and independent walker.

I know this posting is rather jumbled together, but I guess that is reflective of my life right now.

I’m so busy with so many things.

I am searching for a new career and trying to figure out what that is.  I’m taking and picking Corbin up from school everyday and having him in the afternoons.  I’m working to get Corbin into a private school which was going to be hard before I lost my job, but now the financial aid is even more imperative, so I’m busy getting all the paperwork together and submitted.  We’re also going on a trip that we’d planned back in October in the next couple of weeks, so I’m preparing for that because it’s an undertaking to travel with all of us.  The doctor says I need to exercise cause it’ll help all these symptoms I’m experiencing.  And, in the back of my head is the golf tournament that I have to make a decision on….maybe you can help me.

Do you think we should have the golf tournament again or should we plan another type of fundraising event?

Leave your answer in the comments section.  FYI, all comments are moderated by me and have to be approved prior to their publication.

So, I’m off to do the things I should be doing.  If only I could figure out where to start.

So, I’m overwhelmed.

5 thoughts on “Whole lotta shaken’ goin’ on

  • January 28, 2011 at 10:00 am

    You are an amazing woman! I am a Mt. Paran parent who is coming tonight to the basketball game to support you guys and found your story from the link on Mt. Paran’s event email. I am so impressed by your strength and your courage. I just wanted to tell you that!!

    God has great plans for you – of that I am sure!
    In Him,

  • January 28, 2011 at 10:47 am

    Wow, Allison- I’m so sorry you’re out of work. I can’t imagine how you are feeling- it has to be so hard. Let me know what you did before so I can keep my ears open for any job opportunities. Be strong!

  • January 28, 2011 at 10:54 am

    Praying for you right now. I am sure you are overwhelmed, and will pray that God will open doors and provide access through ways that you never imagined.

    Wish we could be there tonight. We live out of state, so we can’t make it happen right now.

    With love,

  • January 28, 2011 at 11:23 pm

    It’s so easy to feel like you are the only one in the “overwhelmed” boat!!! Lately, I’ve been feeling that too! But then, I remember that Dr. Walker used to say to we cannot judge the reality of our lives by our feelings, because they are constantly changing. We must (I say to myself) focus on what we know to be the truth – He is the same yesterday, today and forever and He loves us. He is our rescuer – our Hope. Know this – I love you and He love you and yours more – mind boggling!

  • February 8, 2011 at 5:02 pm

    Hey Girl, Just connected with your Mom of FB and was made aware of all the things going on in your life. I certainly don’t understand God’s plan but I can offer to help you in any way possible. I am still flying for Delta so I have many weekdays off that I could help with Corbin.( would love to have a grandson). Or any other way that I could help, I would be happy to. You are the only one that knows your needs and I can’t help if you don’t let me know. Nothing is too big or too small so please call me! My son is 18 so I don’t have to do much parenting for him anymore and I don’t know what to do with all of my free time. I will continue to pray for you and your family. My cell # is 404-372-6201

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